what does christmas mean to you?
having a family gathering and catching up with relatives and cousins? or maybe you arent exactly that close to your family, so grab a few close friends and join the christmas party.
it is close to the end of the year. some are reviewing the resolutions they have made at the beginning of the year. check, it has been done. let's put a happy face sticker beside the task. argh! did not manage to achieve this because i was too busy with work for the whole year. i simply couldnt find time to do this. excuses! so it is a sad face.
it has been good or bad, depending on how you look it. some has things to celebrate for while some cannot find the festive mood at all.
but i think what is in everyone's minds is to have a better future. better in what terms? that is for you yourself to define. i am a little greedy. i dont hope for a better future. i wish for a miracle that i know it will never happen.
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
how can you not love it?
engineeringisfun.com.sg.
the url says it all. it is a website to encourage O levels graduates to take up engineering in poly. when i saw the postcard, i couldnt help and burst out laughing. being in the engineering faculty for 3.5 years, why cant i find the fun part of it yet? looks like i will be a bad ambassador at the engineering booth to clarify worrying concerns of hopeful applicants on open days.
it is a little late to ask myself if engineering is the route that i want to take. do i have regrets? probably. these 3.5 years have been one of the most stressful school days i ever had. i am competing myself against elites, who are smarter than me. the most frustrating part is when my efforts dont pay off and you have course mates who can get what they want easily by whatever methods. it angers me even more. but there is nothing i can do to make myself better except to study harder to work my ass off.
sometimes, i really wish that the line life is fair is true. that would help me greatly in overcoming this personal obstacle. i may not hate my student life as a chemical engineer that much then.
what happens if i didnt choose chemical engineering in the first place? what if i had taken up accountancy instead. after all that was my 2nd choice. probably in another dimension, there is another me. and i would have chosen the alternative and could be living a completely different life. was i happier with my decision or the opposite? this is the bad thing with having too much time at hand. you will start to think about the what if.
to end with a happy note
happy 2nd year! love you =)
the url says it all. it is a website to encourage O levels graduates to take up engineering in poly. when i saw the postcard, i couldnt help and burst out laughing. being in the engineering faculty for 3.5 years, why cant i find the fun part of it yet? looks like i will be a bad ambassador at the engineering booth to clarify worrying concerns of hopeful applicants on open days.
it is a little late to ask myself if engineering is the route that i want to take. do i have regrets? probably. these 3.5 years have been one of the most stressful school days i ever had. i am competing myself against elites, who are smarter than me. the most frustrating part is when my efforts dont pay off and you have course mates who can get what they want easily by whatever methods. it angers me even more. but there is nothing i can do to make myself better except to study harder to work my ass off.
sometimes, i really wish that the line life is fair is true. that would help me greatly in overcoming this personal obstacle. i may not hate my student life as a chemical engineer that much then.
what happens if i didnt choose chemical engineering in the first place? what if i had taken up accountancy instead. after all that was my 2nd choice. probably in another dimension, there is another me. and i would have chosen the alternative and could be living a completely different life. was i happier with my decision or the opposite? this is the bad thing with having too much time at hand. you will start to think about the what if.
to end with a happy note
happy 2nd year! love you =)
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
holidays
the mad rush in school had finally ended. it is time to sit back and relax. but i am the kind of person who cant do nothing for the entire 5 weeks. my initial plan was to look for internship. i managed to find one which was something i would like to do. i was told in the first round, i would be mainly helping the company to organize events, seminars, which i had done in school before. and the best part i would be paid for doing something i enjoy. however, the story flipped when i went for the second round. it seems like the top management did not have any intention to let me participate in any of the activities mentioned earlier due to the short duration and so i would be doing door to door sales instead. crap! tough luck.
how about looking for other temporary jobs? i did check recruit websites but the thought of working my whole holidays away puts me off a little. i want to rest before my last sem starts. or simply, i am lazy.
learn something new? i haven thought of what but my friend told me to pick up my guitar again. haha. i haven been playing it for like years. i think i have forgotten all the fingerings and stuff. dont get too excited. i am talking about the real basics of playing the guitar here. baking? i can learn from my mum but she is busy taking care of my nephews. maybe i should go and take a look at the courses at red man one day and gather friends in my attempt to burn the kitchen down.
i have rested enough and it is time to do something crazy and fun. i want to do something that is out of the ordinary, something that i dont do often. just make my holidays a little bit more exciting besides enjoying my newly bought super freakonomics.
how about looking for other temporary jobs? i did check recruit websites but the thought of working my whole holidays away puts me off a little. i want to rest before my last sem starts. or simply, i am lazy.
learn something new? i haven thought of what but my friend told me to pick up my guitar again. haha. i haven been playing it for like years. i think i have forgotten all the fingerings and stuff. dont get too excited. i am talking about the real basics of playing the guitar here. baking? i can learn from my mum but she is busy taking care of my nephews. maybe i should go and take a look at the courses at red man one day and gather friends in my attempt to burn the kitchen down.
i have rested enough and it is time to do something crazy and fun. i want to do something that is out of the ordinary, something that i dont do often. just make my holidays a little bit more exciting besides enjoying my newly bought super freakonomics.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
just be yourself
we have been signing up for courses to learn something new to improve yourself. seriously, the main objective of signing up for these courses is to impress.
why should you fear when you have real capabilities? often heard but this sentence does not contain the entire truth. everyone has their own capabilities in their individual fields. it is more or less taken for granted an essential criteria one must have. given that everyone is like you, a capable person, so what is it that divides you from the others? here the part where impression counts.
we have no fear for technical aspects of everything in life because we are trained to be like that since we were young. we can definitely pick up the important notes and keep reminding ourselves of all the do and dont. seriously, doesnt this turn us into programmed robots?
when communicating, it is not the do and dont that should bother you. you should be sincere in what you do and say. dont say something just because you have learnt that it is the right thing to say. the person who sparkles in the crowd is the one who presents the naked self in front of others. be truthful and sincere. there is no point in hiding behind the mask society has created. just be yourself.
this is something i had gained from a person whom i met for 30mins today. it is interesting how meeting with people can give you a different insight to life. haha. wish me luck!
why should you fear when you have real capabilities? often heard but this sentence does not contain the entire truth. everyone has their own capabilities in their individual fields. it is more or less taken for granted an essential criteria one must have. given that everyone is like you, a capable person, so what is it that divides you from the others? here the part where impression counts.
we have no fear for technical aspects of everything in life because we are trained to be like that since we were young. we can definitely pick up the important notes and keep reminding ourselves of all the do and dont. seriously, doesnt this turn us into programmed robots?
when communicating, it is not the do and dont that should bother you. you should be sincere in what you do and say. dont say something just because you have learnt that it is the right thing to say. the person who sparkles in the crowd is the one who presents the naked self in front of others. be truthful and sincere. there is no point in hiding behind the mask society has created. just be yourself.
this is something i had gained from a person whom i met for 30mins today. it is interesting how meeting with people can give you a different insight to life. haha. wish me luck!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
(500) days of summer
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this is not a love story. it is a story of boy meets girl.
if i have to name a great movie in 2009, this would definitely be in the list. i dont know why but i just cant help falling in love with it just like when tom first met summer. it is not the usual love story when couple meets, argues and back together again. the movie experience is bitter sweet.
this is exactly the way i am feeling right now with him. love is bitter sweet. it has its ups and downs but that is what made the bond stronger and even more magical. i start to appreciate the little things and effort by him. he taught me how to love and be loved.
i am dying to re-watch this movie and friends would know i do NOT do that at all. so the conclusion is i really do love this movie. maybe i would be inspired by tom and take up architecture just when i am in my final year. what a joke! enjoy this movie when you can.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
stop complaining about your life!
is it really that bad? stop digging the negative points about life! why not take a step back and look at things at another perspective. they dont show their love openly, probably because they arent expressive people. they dont hug and kiss you good night everyday but it is alright. they have their own way to tell you i love you.
i should learn to be contented with my life.
i should learn to be contented with my life.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
reality check
reality check. what is considered as the norm and does it exist?
a norm life of a child is to get into a SAP primary school (not sure if this is still what they called those schools now) because it gives the parents an assurance that the child will be able to ace his studies. after that, good studies is not the only worry on the parents' minds. they are seeking a all rounder development in secondary school. that is when the division occurs and obviously all parents want the best for the child. ideally, the child must graduate with at least a good honours degree and is able to find the suitable job that fetches super high pay.
wake up! that's not happening to me here. this is society's norm? anything besides that are not worthy enough in this godly society? high spirited and adventurous when i am put in an unfamiliar and foreign environments. there are so many crazy things and ideas that i thought of that i want to do. i really do feel that impossible is nothing outside. but when you are back to home sweet home, you are pulled back to reality.
i must obtain good grades are constantly on my mind. friends attending career talks and applying to jobs that are prestigious. most or maybe all said good academic results is not everything. they want to look at our lives outside studies, the so-called soft skills, too. seriously, i doubt how much truth there is in their words. i personally heard this hr personnel first asking the student, so is this your current CAP, when he passed her his resume. we are also looking at other qualifications the applicant has besides good results. tell me about it.
i wish life could be more lenient.
a norm life of a child is to get into a SAP primary school (not sure if this is still what they called those schools now) because it gives the parents an assurance that the child will be able to ace his studies. after that, good studies is not the only worry on the parents' minds. they are seeking a all rounder development in secondary school. that is when the division occurs and obviously all parents want the best for the child. ideally, the child must graduate with at least a good honours degree and is able to find the suitable job that fetches super high pay.
wake up! that's not happening to me here. this is society's norm? anything besides that are not worthy enough in this godly society? high spirited and adventurous when i am put in an unfamiliar and foreign environments. there are so many crazy things and ideas that i thought of that i want to do. i really do feel that impossible is nothing outside. but when you are back to home sweet home, you are pulled back to reality.
i must obtain good grades are constantly on my mind. friends attending career talks and applying to jobs that are prestigious. most or maybe all said good academic results is not everything. they want to look at our lives outside studies, the so-called soft skills, too. seriously, i doubt how much truth there is in their words. i personally heard this hr personnel first asking the student, so is this your current CAP, when he passed her his resume. we are also looking at other qualifications the applicant has besides good results. tell me about it.
i wish life could be more lenient.
Thursday, October 08, 2009
you should know when to stop
not get over her, i want to get her back.
is this being stubborn or having a positive mindset?
your conscious tells you that there is no way you can do to improve on the situation anymore. all factors are not within your control. it is something like it really depends on the others now. but you just refuse to give up. you want to have another shot at it because you believe that no matter how insignificant your effort is, there is always a change. the magnitude of this change is not important. probably, you will succeed if you are given another opportunity. just one more. that's what we always heard.
but really, do you need that one more additional shot? do you really believe that it will make things turn around? there is really a thin line between being stubborn and naive. you should just know when to stop and let it go. stop acting like a bull!
wait, there is not the right way. we should always think on the bright side of life. like what everyone said, the sun will always be up after a gloomy day. does it help? will it make you feel any better when you are being pushed up the wall? it doesnt change anything but mind is always stronger. when you are trapped under a collapsed building, you dont tell yourself that yes, i am going to die right here right now. nobody is going to find me and bring me out of this damn place alive. the rescue team will have to carry me out. no! you tell yourself i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive. that's why there are miracle stories of survivors who managed to escape despite being trapped under collapsed buildings for days. that's being positive.
oh why why why. why is all these negativity clouding above my head? just let things flow and nature takes its course. is this really what i want? i feel so handicapped when i am not in control. probably if world is a little less superficial, i might be a happier person.
is this being stubborn or having a positive mindset?
your conscious tells you that there is no way you can do to improve on the situation anymore. all factors are not within your control. it is something like it really depends on the others now. but you just refuse to give up. you want to have another shot at it because you believe that no matter how insignificant your effort is, there is always a change. the magnitude of this change is not important. probably, you will succeed if you are given another opportunity. just one more. that's what we always heard.
but really, do you need that one more additional shot? do you really believe that it will make things turn around? there is really a thin line between being stubborn and naive. you should just know when to stop and let it go. stop acting like a bull!
wait, there is not the right way. we should always think on the bright side of life. like what everyone said, the sun will always be up after a gloomy day. does it help? will it make you feel any better when you are being pushed up the wall? it doesnt change anything but mind is always stronger. when you are trapped under a collapsed building, you dont tell yourself that yes, i am going to die right here right now. nobody is going to find me and bring me out of this damn place alive. the rescue team will have to carry me out. no! you tell yourself i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive i have to survive. that's why there are miracle stories of survivors who managed to escape despite being trapped under collapsed buildings for days. that's being positive.
oh why why why. why is all these negativity clouding above my head? just let things flow and nature takes its course. is this really what i want? i feel so handicapped when i am not in control. probably if world is a little less superficial, i might be a happier person.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
grow old with you
i was listening to a short segment of 987 home and i heard this song.
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
I'll need you
I'll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you
I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you
I'll miss you
I'll kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
I'll need you
I'll feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if youve had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you
Monday, September 28, 2009
where do u look for comfort?
this is what i saw when waiting for my first out of the four mid term tests i will be having for the next two weeks. a girl, who was sitting a few rows away from me, was hugging her soft toy teddy. i did not observe her for the rest of an hour because i obviously had better and more important things to do. but i assumed she hugged it during the whole one hour duration.
on my way home after tuition, i saw a dad brought his two kids out for a walk, probably after a heavy dinner. coincidentally, those two kids were hugging a teddy in their hands too.
i am not going to mock at them, especially the undergraduate girl. in fact, i think it is perfectly fine for her to do that. during stressful situations, we all look for things to comfort us, make us feel better and happy. that's why the snacks that we eat during examinations period are called comfort food. then again, food is not the only source of comfort one can find. it can be anything, anywhere or even anyone. it does not require any physical shape. all it needs to do is to make you feel more at ease.
so where on earth is this thing? i dont know. you have to seek and find. my method may not work for you because we are different. i secretly do hope to be out of school soon.
on my way home after tuition, i saw a dad brought his two kids out for a walk, probably after a heavy dinner. coincidentally, those two kids were hugging a teddy in their hands too.
i am not going to mock at them, especially the undergraduate girl. in fact, i think it is perfectly fine for her to do that. during stressful situations, we all look for things to comfort us, make us feel better and happy. that's why the snacks that we eat during examinations period are called comfort food. then again, food is not the only source of comfort one can find. it can be anything, anywhere or even anyone. it does not require any physical shape. all it needs to do is to make you feel more at ease.
so where on earth is this thing? i dont know. you have to seek and find. my method may not work for you because we are different. i secretly do hope to be out of school soon.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
what do i exactly want?
i dont want to go. i am not interested. what exactly is it that i want? even i myself has not found the answer yet. i dont know why but i have been hating the life that i am leading now. maybe cos it is monotone, with no excitement and nothing to look forward to except for holidays at the end of the year. that pretty much sums up my outlook of life for now.
this sucks! i dont really hate being a student because i know working life wont be anyhow kinder to me. but i do know is that i dont want to be this powerless, without any control of my life. i cant afford to do certain things because there are many considerations. i need to save up, i need to pay my dad the japan debt but i want a life. gosh! seriously, i am starting to wonder how closet muggers spend their lives. sad, pathetic and pitiful.
give me some fireworks and i will make wonders. if really i have super powers, like flying, so i can go to any part of the world whenever and wherever i like. i dont really mind the ability to control time too. so on sucky bad hair days, i will make my day ends fast and make time crawl when i am enjoying it. let's dream that a superhero kinda accident will happen to me tonight first. so keep daydreaming! it keeps the hope alive. at least i have my bitchy gossip girl new season to keep me accompany on days like this.
this sucks! i dont really hate being a student because i know working life wont be anyhow kinder to me. but i do know is that i dont want to be this powerless, without any control of my life. i cant afford to do certain things because there are many considerations. i need to save up, i need to pay my dad the japan debt but i want a life. gosh! seriously, i am starting to wonder how closet muggers spend their lives. sad, pathetic and pitiful.
give me some fireworks and i will make wonders. if really i have super powers, like flying, so i can go to any part of the world whenever and wherever i like. i dont really mind the ability to control time too. so on sucky bad hair days, i will make my day ends fast and make time crawl when i am enjoying it. let's dream that a superhero kinda accident will happen to me tonight first. so keep daydreaming! it keeps the hope alive. at least i have my bitchy gossip girl new season to keep me accompany on days like this.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
no, you have not missed out a lot
finally the one week break is here. woohoo!! nah, you have not been missing out much. got some good food and nice cold beer for the past 2 days. am i just enjoying life or clearly ignoring the fact that i still need to study for my mid term tests? well, let's the holidays begin!
i got developed some of my first holga collections. yes, the keyword here is some because i stupidly thought that i could collect my photos immediately on the same day if i developed lesser rolls of film. unfortunately, it did not work this way. it wasnt fantastic but a good start. let what sai said, continue shooting! please tell me any good spots to take photos okay?
i dun know why i have such a crazy fav for photography. maybe i got it from my dad cos my dad loves to take photographs. i remembered clearly when i was little, my dad would instruct me to stand at certain spot to take photo with the background. and every festive seasons, like christmas, all the shopping malls along orchard road would be well decorated with santa, elves and presents. though singapore does not snow, it felt more like christmas back then.
i have been dreaming for my camera for months. when when when can i ever lay my hands on it? sometimes, i wish i was working now. it is sick to work to spend. at least i am financially independent right? gosh! i miss the power of money.
let's end it off with some holga photos. =)
while waiting for the company bus...
the temple behind the 10yen coin
sake museum
i got developed some of my first holga collections. yes, the keyword here is some because i stupidly thought that i could collect my photos immediately on the same day if i developed lesser rolls of film. unfortunately, it did not work this way. it wasnt fantastic but a good start. let what sai said, continue shooting! please tell me any good spots to take photos okay?
i dun know why i have such a crazy fav for photography. maybe i got it from my dad cos my dad loves to take photographs. i remembered clearly when i was little, my dad would instruct me to stand at certain spot to take photo with the background. and every festive seasons, like christmas, all the shopping malls along orchard road would be well decorated with santa, elves and presents. though singapore does not snow, it felt more like christmas back then.
i have been dreaming for my camera for months. when when when can i ever lay my hands on it? sometimes, i wish i was working now. it is sick to work to spend. at least i am financially independent right? gosh! i miss the power of money.
let's end it off with some holga photos. =)
while waiting for the company bus...
the temple behind the 10yen coin
sake museum
Saturday, September 12, 2009
what am i going to do?
what am i going to do with my life after i graduate? i think this is the big question that is in everyone's mind now. it is sick and tiring to go to career talks at least once a week when you know deep down in your heart that you stand almost no chances against the majority in the talk. demoralizing to face the harsh reality when you know all the talk about attitude and performance is just a politically correct answer to encourage more applicants. afterall, it is the grades that put you on the map.
damn. h strive and not sit by my laptop and typed this whiny entry? ow am i going to survive in this every man for himself society? no more friends look out for each other back kinda thing anymore. this is getting more like the survivor game. shouldnt it inspire me to strive and not sit by my laptop to type this whiny entry?
cool it girl! i guess there is frustrations building within me. what is the point of putting myself down when i still have another year to go? focus on how i should get to what i want to go. even if i dont reach my destination at the end of it, at least i have gave it a shot.
damn. h strive and not sit by my laptop and typed this whiny entry? ow am i going to survive in this every man for himself society? no more friends look out for each other back kinda thing anymore. this is getting more like the survivor game. shouldnt it inspire me to strive and not sit by my laptop to type this whiny entry?
cool it girl! i guess there is frustrations building within me. what is the point of putting myself down when i still have another year to go? focus on how i should get to what i want to go. even if i dont reach my destination at the end of it, at least i have gave it a shot.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
missing the play time
entering the 4th week of school soon but i have not got back my study momentum yet. i am still missing the play time during the holidays. exploring japan, travelling to taiwan and trying to catch up with old friends. i guess i am more in control of my schedule back then as compared to now. sorry, i cant make it because i have class. dont you just hate hearing this?
quick! accept the fact the school HAS STARTED long ago.
quick! accept the fact the school HAS STARTED long ago.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
when i grow old, i wish i have many wonderful stories to tell my grandchildren. i wish i would never say i had worked and slogged my life away. i dont need an extraordinary one to be special. i wish to accomplish something in life, which i would be damn proud of.
not forgetting to mention this 12 years long friend to them. i find our friendship simply magical. we have known each other for more than a decade. although there are geographical difficulties at some point in time and we dont usually hang up everyday when you are back in spore, you are the one of the few people whom i can talk about my future with. i can allow my imagination to run wild and picture myself in every impossible situations because i know you would be the last person to make judgment on me. even though it maybe silly, we will just laugh it off.
love staying indoors in an air-conditioned and less crowded cafe and just chat. but i love even more your company. thanks babe and continue to laugh your head off at karen is so dumb karen is so dumb photo. anyway, we must be both tipsy when we took that shot.
not forgetting to mention this 12 years long friend to them. i find our friendship simply magical. we have known each other for more than a decade. although there are geographical difficulties at some point in time and we dont usually hang up everyday when you are back in spore, you are the one of the few people whom i can talk about my future with. i can allow my imagination to run wild and picture myself in every impossible situations because i know you would be the last person to make judgment on me. even though it maybe silly, we will just laugh it off.
love staying indoors in an air-conditioned and less crowded cafe and just chat. but i love even more your company. thanks babe and continue to laugh your head off at karen is so dumb karen is so dumb photo. anyway, we must be both tipsy when we took that shot.
Friday, July 24, 2009
leave everything behind
have you ever felt like abandoning everything and just leave? you dont have to worry about your performance in this crazy rat race. you dont have to plan your schedule to meet tight deadlines. all you need is confidence to convince yourself this is the right choice.
i wish one day i would have the courage to uproot myself and move to a foreign place to start afresh. somewhere like boston where no one knows my name. a place where people really do enjoy life, leading a well-balanced lifestyle.
why am i writing such depressing stuff? because i am need a break! not like holidays or travelling because i know too well that it is damn tiring. probably spending a day on my own, cuddling in the familiar corner in my room and day dream. all i want is a day to relax. i do not want to rush anymore.
i wish one day i would have the courage to uproot myself and move to a foreign place to start afresh. somewhere like boston where no one knows my name. a place where people really do enjoy life, leading a well-balanced lifestyle.
why am i writing such depressing stuff? because i am need a break! not like holidays or travelling because i know too well that it is damn tiring. probably spending a day on my own, cuddling in the familiar corner in my room and day dream. all i want is a day to relax. i do not want to rush anymore.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
back to singapore
finally back in Singapore. how was my trip is the common question i get when i meet up with friends. well, the overall experience is an enjoyable one. it is impossible to tell them every single detail of my trip, so here are the photos!
my dormitory
sushi lunch
yokohama Y150
disneyland
my weekend
baseball match
kyoto and osaka
yokohama drinking
tsukiji fish market and harajuku
colleagues
last weekend
my dormitory
sushi lunch
yokohama Y150
disneyland
my weekend
baseball match
kyoto and osaka
yokohama drinking
tsukiji fish market and harajuku
colleagues
last weekend
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
right after farewell party
i just got back to dormitory from the farewell party. not like those emotional ones i used to have in my CCA in secondary school. to me, it was more of a dinner and an opportunity for everyone in the unit to interact. people dont have many chances to sit down and talk because they are all busy with their experiments, walking to and fro laboratory and office.
i cant believe that my internship is coming to an end in 2 days and i will be back in sunny island soon. i do miss spore food a lot because i cant find them here. imagine how happy i was when one of the colleagues said another colleague bought dried durian from the airport to office recently. DURIAN!! the king of fruits and of course, my favourite.
everyone is nice and takes extra good care of me. although the duration is too short to foster any strong friendship with the colleagues, i had fun knowing them. they taught me many things, like random japanese words, introduce me to the japanese custom such as we cannot refill our drinks by ourselves because they believe that by doing so, they wont be happy in the future. i dont know what else to say to them except thank you. i am very grateful for all the help that they have given to me for the past 10 weeks.
i feel sad to leave japan. firstly, i have not explored the whole of japan yet. seriously, travelling during the weekends arent enough. time is not on my side and so it restricts the area that i can visit. and i am actually enjoying the freedom i have now. totally in control of my life and schedule. i do not have to inform my parents if i will be home late or what and no nagging from them when i go home late. definitely i am in love with the drinking culture here. comparing to them, i am not considered as a strong drinker. but drinking and smoking are in their blood and of course i choose drinking. i love alcohol! and it is so much cheaper in japan than in spore. if i used to be able to drink once or twice in a month in spore, i think i can afford to drink weekly in japan.
finally free from fyp. i am just super super glad that it is officially over. it has been a killer for me during the past few days. the lack of sleep, without coffee this time round and the mad rush to prepare to leave japan makes me ultra tired. i guess i seriously do need to rest more these few days because my eyes kinda hurt when i was reading from the computer screen today. i shall sleep early and rest well before my sleepless night on sat.
i cant believe that my internship is coming to an end in 2 days and i will be back in sunny island soon. i do miss spore food a lot because i cant find them here. imagine how happy i was when one of the colleagues said another colleague bought dried durian from the airport to office recently. DURIAN!! the king of fruits and of course, my favourite.
everyone is nice and takes extra good care of me. although the duration is too short to foster any strong friendship with the colleagues, i had fun knowing them. they taught me many things, like random japanese words, introduce me to the japanese custom such as we cannot refill our drinks by ourselves because they believe that by doing so, they wont be happy in the future. i dont know what else to say to them except thank you. i am very grateful for all the help that they have given to me for the past 10 weeks.
i feel sad to leave japan. firstly, i have not explored the whole of japan yet. seriously, travelling during the weekends arent enough. time is not on my side and so it restricts the area that i can visit. and i am actually enjoying the freedom i have now. totally in control of my life and schedule. i do not have to inform my parents if i will be home late or what and no nagging from them when i go home late. definitely i am in love with the drinking culture here. comparing to them, i am not considered as a strong drinker. but drinking and smoking are in their blood and of course i choose drinking. i love alcohol! and it is so much cheaper in japan than in spore. if i used to be able to drink once or twice in a month in spore, i think i can afford to drink weekly in japan.
finally free from fyp. i am just super super glad that it is officially over. it has been a killer for me during the past few days. the lack of sleep, without coffee this time round and the mad rush to prepare to leave japan makes me ultra tired. i guess i seriously do need to rest more these few days because my eyes kinda hurt when i was reading from the computer screen today. i shall sleep early and rest well before my sleepless night on sat.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
what is the difference?
culture shock! something that is inevitable when you come to another country. coming to japan is not exactly considered as a shock, but there are small little details that surprise or puzzle me.
i dont think i can ever understand the long term employment practice in japan. most, like 99%, of my colleagues are working at mitsui since they graduated. so this is their first job and they do not have plans to change jobs. that is so different from spore! we job-hop like crazy because we are always telling ourselves that the grass on the other side is definitely greener. we want growth and progress. if we cant find that in our jobs, most likely we would just look for alternatives.
i do love guys but i cant help to not stare at pretty girls. there is this pretty japanese girl, whose locker is beside mine in the changing room. so sometimes, i would meet her before or after work. coincidentally, i met her at the staff canteen today with my mentor. i causally asked my mentor if he thinks she is pretty. he just replied she is pretty?! i gave him the stunned look because i do think she is pretty. and he just shut me up with no comments. are japanese guys that shy or they are just being polite because i am more of a guest than an internship student.
not much time left in japan. little problems cropped up in the going back to spore arrangement. but we have came up with a solution, not the best of course. countdowning to the number of days left and the days to submission of fyp report.
i dont think i can ever understand the long term employment practice in japan. most, like 99%, of my colleagues are working at mitsui since they graduated. so this is their first job and they do not have plans to change jobs. that is so different from spore! we job-hop like crazy because we are always telling ourselves that the grass on the other side is definitely greener. we want growth and progress. if we cant find that in our jobs, most likely we would just look for alternatives.
i do love guys but i cant help to not stare at pretty girls. there is this pretty japanese girl, whose locker is beside mine in the changing room. so sometimes, i would meet her before or after work. coincidentally, i met her at the staff canteen today with my mentor. i causally asked my mentor if he thinks she is pretty. he just replied she is pretty?! i gave him the stunned look because i do think she is pretty. and he just shut me up with no comments. are japanese guys that shy or they are just being polite because i am more of a guest than an internship student.
not much time left in japan. little problems cropped up in the going back to spore arrangement. but we have came up with a solution, not the best of course. countdowning to the number of days left and the days to submission of fyp report.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
rain rain go away
i have this special thing with rainy days. everything is so quiet and peaceful on rainy days. the pace of life seems to have slowed down a little to enjoy this watery splash. staring at the window and observing the water pattern. looking through this thin water layer, thinking it would be good if i could just lie on my bed with my rainy days playlist plugged in.
rain rain go away. come again sometime next week.
rain rain go away. come again sometime next week.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
not much time left
i am starting to get used to living alone in this big dorm room i have now. adapted to the i-have-to-do-everything-by-myself life style now. i am not sure if i would be used to it when i go back to singapore with my parents poking their noses into almost everything i do. but after the phone call i had ytd, i am glad i am at japan now.
away from the chaos and trouble that is brewing or rather has happened. at least i am staying out of it. i cant be bothered or rather i choose not to care. i just want to enjoy the remaining one more month i have in japan and finish my fyp.
i just got home from a takoyaki lunch. 8 huge tako, 1 red bean paste cake and super yummy starbucks although it was a little too sweet for me. i am loving the ambiance at the starbucks branch. it is really a nice place to literally sit back and enjoy my sunday. looking at the cars through the window, just daydreaming and looking at the live stage. if only singapore has available land space for that, maybe i will love starbucks a little more. i wish my future house is something like that although i love living in a city.
this is random.
away from the chaos and trouble that is brewing or rather has happened. at least i am staying out of it. i cant be bothered or rather i choose not to care. i just want to enjoy the remaining one more month i have in japan and finish my fyp.
i just got home from a takoyaki lunch. 8 huge tako, 1 red bean paste cake and super yummy starbucks although it was a little too sweet for me. i am loving the ambiance at the starbucks branch. it is really a nice place to literally sit back and enjoy my sunday. looking at the cars through the window, just daydreaming and looking at the live stage. if only singapore has available land space for that, maybe i will love starbucks a little more. i wish my future house is something like that although i love living in a city.
this is random.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
most beautiful thing
would you ever lie to make someone feel better? nobody can escape from his eyes. he knows exactly when you are lying. he can see through you by observing your reactions to his questions. think twice before you respond. but dont show your true feelings on your face or in your behaviour.
be sincere and stop hiding behind that mask of yours. being true to yourself is the most beautiful and hardest thing to do. if you always show or tell others exactly what you are feeling, there is no way you can hide from them because they can read you like a book. and people will describe you as being frank or even worse insensitive because you wont know who you have hurt along the way. so you have to make a choice between honest and PR skills. seriously, i dont know what i will pick. but i am definitely more on the honest side.
i guess being a child is the best. you dont have to worry about bringing money back home. you dont have to think how to make the next meal possible. you dont have to learn how to hide your feelings. they just cry when they are sad. they just laugh when they are happy. often, adults will forgive and forget whatever a child does no matter how naughty they can be. but when an adult makes a mistake, it is just so hard to forget and forgive. i will definitely feel the pain within me although i may have appeared fine.
it sucks when you know there are so many factors to consider when you are an adult.
be sincere and stop hiding behind that mask of yours. being true to yourself is the most beautiful and hardest thing to do. if you always show or tell others exactly what you are feeling, there is no way you can hide from them because they can read you like a book. and people will describe you as being frank or even worse insensitive because you wont know who you have hurt along the way. so you have to make a choice between honest and PR skills. seriously, i dont know what i will pick. but i am definitely more on the honest side.
i guess being a child is the best. you dont have to worry about bringing money back home. you dont have to think how to make the next meal possible. you dont have to learn how to hide your feelings. they just cry when they are sad. they just laugh when they are happy. often, adults will forgive and forget whatever a child does no matter how naughty they can be. but when an adult makes a mistake, it is just so hard to forget and forgive. i will definitely feel the pain within me although i may have appeared fine.
it sucks when you know there are so many factors to consider when you are an adult.
Monday, May 25, 2009
3rd week
here i am, into the 3rd week of stay at japan. getting to know a little more people in the dorm. they are super nice to me. mifo-san bought me out on the last weekend for a sushi feast. there are many choices, much more than in spore. like they have this red shelled sushi, and in spore, we have the bean curd skin wrapped with rice, but here, they have the same thing but dripped in brown sugar syrup. sweet!
after she saw my pathetic lunch on the first sunday, she offered to cook lunch for me on last sunday. so nice! it was my first time cooking a proper meal, not spags. haha. i am so proud of myself.
i think getting to know more people here in japan really do help me in settling down. i have friends to talk to, and not always face the 4 tall walls in my dorm everyday after work. it is starting to feel a little like the hall life. making new and random friends are always so exciting. i met a sporean who sat beside me in the cinema when i went to watch angels and demons. and now, i have an indian friend who is my few outlets to speak english to in japan.
but, i cant forget all my dear friends in spore. i am really glad that i still feel connected with the life back in spore. all the bitchings and happenings in their lives, i know a little bit here and there. i dont need to know the full picture in details. i just want to still be part of their lives although i am here in japan.
and one thing i have learnt about travelling is to always be open to new things. i used to hate eating vegetables in spore. you never see them on my plate at all. but last sunday, i actually ate my first slice of tomato in salad dressing and okinawa bitter ground since dont know how many donkey years ago. good job! never be afraid to learn and try. i dont know how to play softball. dont just stand there and watch. try to get involved. ask around to know how the game is played.
and i am going to attend an english class tomorrow morning. haha. all the best for the next few weeks.
after she saw my pathetic lunch on the first sunday, she offered to cook lunch for me on last sunday. so nice! it was my first time cooking a proper meal, not spags. haha. i am so proud of myself.
i think getting to know more people here in japan really do help me in settling down. i have friends to talk to, and not always face the 4 tall walls in my dorm everyday after work. it is starting to feel a little like the hall life. making new and random friends are always so exciting. i met a sporean who sat beside me in the cinema when i went to watch angels and demons. and now, i have an indian friend who is my few outlets to speak english to in japan.
but, i cant forget all my dear friends in spore. i am really glad that i still feel connected with the life back in spore. all the bitchings and happenings in their lives, i know a little bit here and there. i dont need to know the full picture in details. i just want to still be part of their lives although i am here in japan.
and one thing i have learnt about travelling is to always be open to new things. i used to hate eating vegetables in spore. you never see them on my plate at all. but last sunday, i actually ate my first slice of tomato in salad dressing and okinawa bitter ground since dont know how many donkey years ago. good job! never be afraid to learn and try. i dont know how to play softball. dont just stand there and watch. try to get involved. ask around to know how the game is played.
and i am going to attend an english class tomorrow morning. haha. all the best for the next few weeks.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
1st week at japan
it has been a week at japan and yes, i do miss everyone and everything about singapore. gradually i am starting to appreciate the tiny little bits of singapore that makes me feel comfortable. in singapore, it doesnt really matter how late i am home because i know my streets will be well lit and i will be safe. but here in japan, the sun sets super early. so the sky turns dark pretty fast. at around 7pm japan's time, the road leading to my dorm is already dark. and the total number of street lamps along the way up to my dorm is 2 only. pathetic isnt? so some parts of the roads are really dark, no light at all. so i do make it a point to be back at my dorm before my dinner serves at the dorm ends, which is at 9pm.
weekdays are pretty boring. it is just the normal daily routine of waking up to go to work, stay in the lab for almost the whole day, go back to dorm, sometimes go to the nearby supermarket for some grocery shopping, head back to dorm for dinner and rest. nothing exciting or worth mentioning for my weekdays.
yesterday was my first weekend in japan and i went over to chiba, the city area to watch angels and demons. yes, it is one of my highly anticipating movie of the year. i was waiting anxiously for my favourite part in the book and it was not shown in the movie. damn it! so disappointing. and it is really very costly to watch a movie at japan. a student price student cost me 1300yen, which is approximately S$20. crazy! so we should STOP complaining in the rise in the movie tickets, because it is so much cheaper to watch movies in singapore than japan. i din have much time to walk around chiba because the movie and lunch took most of my afternoon away. i was hoping to capture some city landscape on my holga in the day but it was a super cloudy day yesterday. sucks! there will still be chances ya.
it cannot be considered as a culture shock for working in japan. we are all asians. more or less there will be similarities. their work space has this open concept, which is absence in singapore. in spore, each employee has their own working space but here, everyone works in a big table and the only division between each other is the CPU. haha. so basically if i lean a little backwards, i will be able to see what my neighbour is doing. haha. i realised they place lots of emphasis on safety. i am not sure if it runs in all the japanese companies or because i am working in a chemicals research centre. but i have monthly safety meeting to report on safety matters in my centre and at other plants. to end the meeting, we have a short group discussion on HAZOP. haha. dont be deceive by the japanese drama. we dont do morning exercise together everyday before the start of the work. instead we have this team meeting at 9am sharp every morning to report on important matters and tasks that individuals are going to complete for the day. yes, task-orientated.
one thing that i may have some difficulties in is japanese are all super punctual for work. if the meeting is going to start at 9am, it really begins at 9am. and their transportation has timetable, that shows the arrival time for the buses at the bus stop. it is damn accurate although the some timings are quite weird like 1757hr. so i guess it is in their blood to be punctual. so far, i have not been late. so let's keep up the good work girl!
there are bound to be some difficulties in adapting to the life here. luckily the japanese were super helpful. when i first moved into the dorm, i couldnt connect to the internet although my cables were connected correctly. i tried to look at the guide CD but everything was in japanese. so i went over to seek help from my neighbour. he, his friend and the dorm in charge were super nice. they came over to my dorm for 2 nights to try to fix it for me. finally on my 3rd day, i got the net up. and the female neighbour just popped by to pass me some walnut brownies, cake and oranges that her parents bought for her. haha. nice!
one week has past and 8 more weeks to go. i do not have any major complaints about my stay yet except that sometimes the loneliness is unbearable. i do make friends with some japanese along the way. and i am sure things will only get better. miss everyone at home and thanks for letting me made this selfish decision back then. love you all!
weekdays are pretty boring. it is just the normal daily routine of waking up to go to work, stay in the lab for almost the whole day, go back to dorm, sometimes go to the nearby supermarket for some grocery shopping, head back to dorm for dinner and rest. nothing exciting or worth mentioning for my weekdays.
yesterday was my first weekend in japan and i went over to chiba, the city area to watch angels and demons. yes, it is one of my highly anticipating movie of the year. i was waiting anxiously for my favourite part in the book and it was not shown in the movie. damn it! so disappointing. and it is really very costly to watch a movie at japan. a student price student cost me 1300yen, which is approximately S$20. crazy! so we should STOP complaining in the rise in the movie tickets, because it is so much cheaper to watch movies in singapore than japan. i din have much time to walk around chiba because the movie and lunch took most of my afternoon away. i was hoping to capture some city landscape on my holga in the day but it was a super cloudy day yesterday. sucks! there will still be chances ya.
it cannot be considered as a culture shock for working in japan. we are all asians. more or less there will be similarities. their work space has this open concept, which is absence in singapore. in spore, each employee has their own working space but here, everyone works in a big table and the only division between each other is the CPU. haha. so basically if i lean a little backwards, i will be able to see what my neighbour is doing. haha. i realised they place lots of emphasis on safety. i am not sure if it runs in all the japanese companies or because i am working in a chemicals research centre. but i have monthly safety meeting to report on safety matters in my centre and at other plants. to end the meeting, we have a short group discussion on HAZOP. haha. dont be deceive by the japanese drama. we dont do morning exercise together everyday before the start of the work. instead we have this team meeting at 9am sharp every morning to report on important matters and tasks that individuals are going to complete for the day. yes, task-orientated.
one thing that i may have some difficulties in is japanese are all super punctual for work. if the meeting is going to start at 9am, it really begins at 9am. and their transportation has timetable, that shows the arrival time for the buses at the bus stop. it is damn accurate although the some timings are quite weird like 1757hr. so i guess it is in their blood to be punctual. so far, i have not been late. so let's keep up the good work girl!
there are bound to be some difficulties in adapting to the life here. luckily the japanese were super helpful. when i first moved into the dorm, i couldnt connect to the internet although my cables were connected correctly. i tried to look at the guide CD but everything was in japanese. so i went over to seek help from my neighbour. he, his friend and the dorm in charge were super nice. they came over to my dorm for 2 nights to try to fix it for me. finally on my 3rd day, i got the net up. and the female neighbour just popped by to pass me some walnut brownies, cake and oranges that her parents bought for her. haha. nice!
one week has past and 8 more weeks to go. i do not have any major complaints about my stay yet except that sometimes the loneliness is unbearable. i do make friends with some japanese along the way. and i am sure things will only get better. miss everyone at home and thanks for letting me made this selfish decision back then. love you all!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
in japan
yup, and i am blogging at my cosy one person room at tokyo now. the first day was just CRAZY with lots of dragging 25kg heavy of baggage over to find the hotel, carrying that heavy shit out and in the many different trains and walking till my toes had the burning sensation when i dripped myself into the public hot bath, just to get a japan mobile phone and internet access for communication purposes. i was telling the other 2 girls this trip can really train our stamina and our arm power. maybe i will become fitter when i return. haha. and there is another round of dragging and carrying tomorrow, finally to my permanent stay in japan, my dormitory.
the internet access here is like insane! the plan that we signed up only allows us to use around 50MB per month. any extra bytes downloaded will be charged per usage. i was damn turned off. initially i wanted to bring my external hard disk full with movies and videos to watch. but i thought it is pointless since i will be able to stream my video online. now, it doesnt seem to be that case anymore. luckily, the other 2 girls have movies to share with me or else i dont know how i am going to survive ALONE at chiba for 2.5months. i think i may resort to talking to ants again.
i dont know how the dormitory is like and yes, i am so freaking alone there. and i heard from the lady who picked us up that my dormitory is somewhere along the hill. omg! i will be damn close to nature. will i be cut off from the outside world when i am there. haha. we shall see, just look out for blog and facebook. i need to limit my internet usage per month NOW. like wtf!
anyways, yes, i am scared to go there alone. the language barrier and being forced to face anything that will come in my way alone in Chiba scare the hell out of me. maybe what dabai and junrong said were true, i did not think about the consequences of agreeing to this internship. weighing the pros and cons will just make my head grow big and bigger. i will just have to learn and adapt and handle everything with grace when it comes my way. it is hard to do but i will try. so family, dabai and friends, do bear with my complaints if there are any.
and so we 3 girls went to shibuya, the shopping district in Tokyo and visit the Tokyo tower when we were free in the evening and night. the people they do really know how to dress. couldnt buy anything since i will be on the move again. so everything shall wait. i just need to settle my dear internet access and adapting to Chiba first.
dear all friends, i am not sure if you will be reading this but i really appreciate your effort and time to come down to Changi airport to send me off yesterday. i really appreciate it a lot except for all the laughing at my hair. damn it!! and please do STOP laughing when i return. meanwhile, just miss my presence a lot and enjoy your hols/internship in singapore!
i will be back soon. =)
the internet access here is like insane! the plan that we signed up only allows us to use around 50MB per month. any extra bytes downloaded will be charged per usage. i was damn turned off. initially i wanted to bring my external hard disk full with movies and videos to watch. but i thought it is pointless since i will be able to stream my video online. now, it doesnt seem to be that case anymore. luckily, the other 2 girls have movies to share with me or else i dont know how i am going to survive ALONE at chiba for 2.5months. i think i may resort to talking to ants again.
i dont know how the dormitory is like and yes, i am so freaking alone there. and i heard from the lady who picked us up that my dormitory is somewhere along the hill. omg! i will be damn close to nature. will i be cut off from the outside world when i am there. haha. we shall see, just look out for blog and facebook. i need to limit my internet usage per month NOW. like wtf!
anyways, yes, i am scared to go there alone. the language barrier and being forced to face anything that will come in my way alone in Chiba scare the hell out of me. maybe what dabai and junrong said were true, i did not think about the consequences of agreeing to this internship. weighing the pros and cons will just make my head grow big and bigger. i will just have to learn and adapt and handle everything with grace when it comes my way. it is hard to do but i will try. so family, dabai and friends, do bear with my complaints if there are any.
and so we 3 girls went to shibuya, the shopping district in Tokyo and visit the Tokyo tower when we were free in the evening and night. the people they do really know how to dress. couldnt buy anything since i will be on the move again. so everything shall wait. i just need to settle my dear internet access and adapting to Chiba first.
dear all friends, i am not sure if you will be reading this but i really appreciate your effort and time to come down to Changi airport to send me off yesterday. i really appreciate it a lot except for all the laughing at my hair. damn it!! and please do STOP laughing when i return. meanwhile, just miss my presence a lot and enjoy your hols/internship in singapore!
i will be back soon. =)
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
my orangey-red love
super duper happy today. i cant wait to go snapping around with my new love. i want my saturday to come fast. =)
Monday, March 09, 2009
the tree is gone!
now, i have a super good view outside my room because the tree right outside my room was chopped down because of the HDB upgrading program. damn it! i din realize it until last night. i was a little pissed. after all, the tree grew up with me. my sis and i used to joke that tree belonged to us because it was just right outside my room window. and now it is gone! argh! i seriously dont see any good in this upgrading program except dust, dirt, tree gone and inconvenience.
Saturday, March 07, 2009
the boy in stripped pyjamas
i had attended a boy's funeral at the comfort of the red seats. it got me thinking the whole night. i just cant get the scene out of my head.
ignorance is a bliss but not to me anymore. parents are protective over their children, i wish that would never happen anymore. race identities who we are, cant we use other sources? curiosity kills the cat, i do believe in that now. living by the extreme beliefs breaks the nation, i dont want to experience that at all. one thing i am sure of is crossing the boundary can cost your dear life.
he did not understand why. to him, they were just farmers and kids whom he could make friends with. he did not comprehend his mother's objection to him going to the back garden. the love from his parents caused him to doubt his father once. people close to him were telling him they belonged to the evil forces and they were his enemies. he was confused. was his new found friend as dangerous as what the others pictured?
everything was an exploration, a game to him. he thought he was playing the same game with his friends back in town. little did he know, when the soldiers came, it was the end. where were the facilities showed in the video? we were all going to take a shower together. when the metal door was closed and the lights were off, the water for the shower came pouring in. knocking and chattering gradually died down. cries from his parents echoed through the forest. as for him, he held tightly to his friend's hand.
when the lights came back, every step that i took down the stairway weighed a ton.
ignorance is a bliss but not to me anymore. parents are protective over their children, i wish that would never happen anymore. race identities who we are, cant we use other sources? curiosity kills the cat, i do believe in that now. living by the extreme beliefs breaks the nation, i dont want to experience that at all. one thing i am sure of is crossing the boundary can cost your dear life.
he did not understand why. to him, they were just farmers and kids whom he could make friends with. he did not comprehend his mother's objection to him going to the back garden. the love from his parents caused him to doubt his father once. people close to him were telling him they belonged to the evil forces and they were his enemies. he was confused. was his new found friend as dangerous as what the others pictured?
everything was an exploration, a game to him. he thought he was playing the same game with his friends back in town. little did he know, when the soldiers came, it was the end. where were the facilities showed in the video? we were all going to take a shower together. when the metal door was closed and the lights were off, the water for the shower came pouring in. knocking and chattering gradually died down. cries from his parents echoed through the forest. as for him, he held tightly to his friend's hand.
when the lights came back, every step that i took down the stairway weighed a ton.
Monday, March 02, 2009
holga
i am currently having this love-hate relationship with myself. i am so into lomography after i developed the photos i took at ubin. those photos were taken with dabai's vivitar. it is like the old-school camera that requires film. the best old-school function of it is i have to turn the film manually after i take a shot each time. nevertheless i love the camera and all the photos to bits. and now, i want to get a holga for myself badly. i just wish i would be rich the next day and get it. haha. keep dreaming my dear. i think i should seriously put my saving money plan into full force now. holga is my motivation.
Monday, February 23, 2009
e5 goes to ubin!
yesterday was a day filled with lousy bicycles, rain, shine, sweat and fun! we din want the normal dinner and chit-chat session. we wanted something new and different since it is our mid-term break now. it was really an expedition for the 5 of us, maybe more for me and goi cos it was our first time to ubin.
we did many crazy stuff there. trying to beat each other high score in this itouch game which i believed dingod hates it to the core now. trying to blend in with a should-be nus group. there was a tour guide attached to the group. he was explaining to them the mangrove habitat that can be found at the boardwalk. we totally did not understand what they were staring at among the green floating patches because we couldnt see anything except the green grass. so i started to point and stare hard at a random spot. of course, fixing lousy bicycle which had chains kept felling off and pushing our bicycles up the steep upwards slope. the craziest thing we did was where i fell. bloody hell!
it was fun to get away from the hustle and bustle of a city life sometimes. we called it a mini retreat for working hard for half the sem. let's have another expedition sometimes when we have the luxury of time again. =)
we did many crazy stuff there. trying to beat each other high score in this itouch game which i believed dingod hates it to the core now. trying to blend in with a should-be nus group. there was a tour guide attached to the group. he was explaining to them the mangrove habitat that can be found at the boardwalk. we totally did not understand what they were staring at among the green floating patches because we couldnt see anything except the green grass. so i started to point and stare hard at a random spot. of course, fixing lousy bicycle which had chains kept felling off and pushing our bicycles up the steep upwards slope. the craziest thing we did was where i fell. bloody hell!
it was fun to get away from the hustle and bustle of a city life sometimes. we called it a mini retreat for working hard for half the sem. let's have another expedition sometimes when we have the luxury of time again. =)
Sunday, February 15, 2009
norm?
how do you define the norm? it is something that is recognized and accepted by society as the usual. i guessed i have been living my life pretty much in the pre-planned manner, which is described by many as the norm. i want to be extraordinary but first, do i have the capability to be so?
i dont agree with the norm dinner at some posh restaurant on vday. they will come up with couple set meals that are out to exploit all consumers. i dont want to be the preys of consumerism. i am not sure if they were wondering why we were having our dinner at this ramen shop at tanjong pagar on vday or they were staring at my pretty flowers. i chose to believe the later. i just want to have a cosy, quiet and quality dinner with him.
when things go wrong in life, people usually choose to adapt and make changes. do they ever ask themselves is the change what they really want? in the wrestler, he had nothing more to lose. his daughter gave up on him and he couldnt catch the last glimpse of the woman he loved. he put his life at stake. to some, it is a stupid decision to give up on your health. i see it in a different light. at least he was doing wrestling, a kind of sports that he was passionate about, till his last breath. how many of us actually have the privilege to ever do something we love?
when the future is bleak, never to give up hope. there are always alternatives available. it is just a matter of willingness to take a different path from others. i need the courage to take that big step forward now. i need conviction to quit myself from thinking in the norm way. sometimes i think would i be a happier person if i were not trapped in this pressure cooker. i enjoy the rat race pretty much but not in way when results is all that matters.
i still want to keep that passion alive, to keep doing things i truly enjoy. be a wrestler? probably in my next life when i could withstand pain even with all the role playing going on.
thank you for making this another special and memorable day for me.
i dont agree with the norm dinner at some posh restaurant on vday. they will come up with couple set meals that are out to exploit all consumers. i dont want to be the preys of consumerism. i am not sure if they were wondering why we were having our dinner at this ramen shop at tanjong pagar on vday or they were staring at my pretty flowers. i chose to believe the later. i just want to have a cosy, quiet and quality dinner with him.
when things go wrong in life, people usually choose to adapt and make changes. do they ever ask themselves is the change what they really want? in the wrestler, he had nothing more to lose. his daughter gave up on him and he couldnt catch the last glimpse of the woman he loved. he put his life at stake. to some, it is a stupid decision to give up on your health. i see it in a different light. at least he was doing wrestling, a kind of sports that he was passionate about, till his last breath. how many of us actually have the privilege to ever do something we love?
when the future is bleak, never to give up hope. there are always alternatives available. it is just a matter of willingness to take a different path from others. i need the courage to take that big step forward now. i need conviction to quit myself from thinking in the norm way. sometimes i think would i be a happier person if i were not trapped in this pressure cooker. i enjoy the rat race pretty much but not in way when results is all that matters.
i still want to keep that passion alive, to keep doing things i truly enjoy. be a wrestler? probably in my next life when i could withstand pain even with all the role playing going on.
thank you for making this another special and memorable day for me.
Monday, February 09, 2009
xoxo
omg!! i hate myself for watching gossip girl. i dont understand why i am always so affected after watching it. i guess i dont like the direction my favourite lonely boy character is developing to. i just cant help to think what if similar incidents happen to me too? well, i dont lead the upper east life style so i dont exactly have to worry so much. ha! i hate this cynical old me, always thinking of the worst outcome, never believing that miracles do happen once in a blue moon.
i am secretly rooting for the s and d combination.
i am secretly rooting for the s and d combination.
Sunday, February 01, 2009
22nd birthday weekend
my birthday weekend started on a good note. went over to my sister's house for steamboat. i was pretty amazed by how much jayden has grown since i last saw him. he looks slimmer now which i am not very happy with because i cant get with his baby fats cheeks anymore. he can lift his legs up and pull them close to his chest now! furthermore, he tried his very best to sit up in his pram until his face turned as red as a tomato. my nephew is just so adorable. =)
bday was filled with simple yet pleasant surprises. i had the traditional chinese mee sua for lunch. pretty bday card and surprise arrival of the canele chocolate royle cake. dinner was at friends @ jelita. i guessed i expect too much from the french cuisine. nevertheless, i want to go back there to try their ala cart menu. after dinner, it was a trip down to the cathay to catch bride wars. not the awards winning movie but the trailer was funny enough to capture my attention.
this bday was a super duper happy one. it was spent with my loved ones. i just couldnt stop smiling. =) let's hope all bdays will be as happy or even happier than this.
bday was filled with simple yet pleasant surprises. i had the traditional chinese mee sua for lunch. pretty bday card and surprise arrival of the canele chocolate royle cake. dinner was at friends @ jelita. i guessed i expect too much from the french cuisine. nevertheless, i want to go back there to try their ala cart menu. after dinner, it was a trip down to the cathay to catch bride wars. not the awards winning movie but the trailer was funny enough to capture my attention.
this bday was a super duper happy one. it was spent with my loved ones. i just couldnt stop smiling. =) let's hope all bdays will be as happy or even happier than this.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
happy cny
first day of the chinese new year. it is hard to escape from the house visiting tradition unless you are going overseas during this long holidays break. it can be quite tiring at time because practically i have to travel all around singapore. people dont live in the kampong style anymore. for example today, i took an hour to travel from cck to tampiness by car, along the PIE.
i used to be very excited about cny. shopping in town with friends to get new clothes, helping my parents to prepare for the reunion dinner and the best part is putting the snacks into nice oriental containers. however, the excitement doesnt seem to be there anymore as i grow older.
i am not interested to get myself tired out for cny. i do not need all the hype about cny. i only want to spend a quiet and cosy cny with family and friends. i just want to spend time to catch up with people whom i treasure and love me as much as i do. i hate to make small talks with people i only see once every year, or repeat their questions every year.
oh wells, get lots of ang baos!! happy chinese new year, pull your ears. =)
i used to be very excited about cny. shopping in town with friends to get new clothes, helping my parents to prepare for the reunion dinner and the best part is putting the snacks into nice oriental containers. however, the excitement doesnt seem to be there anymore as i grow older.
i am not interested to get myself tired out for cny. i do not need all the hype about cny. i only want to spend a quiet and cosy cny with family and friends. i just want to spend time to catch up with people whom i treasure and love me as much as i do. i hate to make small talks with people i only see once every year, or repeat their questions every year.
oh wells, get lots of ang baos!! happy chinese new year, pull your ears. =)
Thursday, January 15, 2009
you dont have a choice
there is no complete truth to 'you determine your own destiny'. pretty often the environment, the situation you are stuck in, loved ones and money will pay a part in your decision making. so you wont be able to do exactly what you want initially. let's not talk about doing things that you like.
so what do you do when you are forced by circumstances? squat down and start to cry on the spot or maybe make a fuss out of everything and blame everyone except yourself for the outcome. no! although you are currently involved in a situation you dont like, you dont give up. why? simply because losing is not something you like.
and so you pull yourself together for the last time and tell yourself not to give up. it seems like a long and lonely journey ahead but your loved ones are always secretly cheering you on. never wallow in self pity because what you are facing now is not the end. there are many people who are fighting for the extra second in life out there and why should you give up on yours here?
you, fight on!
so what do you do when you are forced by circumstances? squat down and start to cry on the spot or maybe make a fuss out of everything and blame everyone except yourself for the outcome. no! although you are currently involved in a situation you dont like, you dont give up. why? simply because losing is not something you like.
and so you pull yourself together for the last time and tell yourself not to give up. it seems like a long and lonely journey ahead but your loved ones are always secretly cheering you on. never wallow in self pity because what you are facing now is not the end. there are many people who are fighting for the extra second in life out there and why should you give up on yours here?
you, fight on!
Saturday, January 03, 2009
things that i hate about men
the world is made up of different individuals. i heard from a friend that aquarian is supposed to be at loggerheads with cancerian but my bestie is born on the 17July. i guess we dont really need to accept everything from books on how to build good interpersonal relationships wholeheartedly. seriously, it boils down to whether the other party is able to tolerant your flaws and accept you as a human being.
this group of people can get onto my nerves very easily. they are the group of people who loves to live in their own time. when things go wrong, they choose to stand right at the same spot for the longest time you can ever imagine. dont they know that time waits for no man? things dont go backwards like pressing the backspace button on the keypad. we move forward! they refuse to do anything to salvage the situation. they whine and live in self-pity. seriously, get a life! if you dont love yourself, you cant accept the same from others.
i cant say i am a super duper responsible person but you do earn my respect if you are willing to be responsible for your own actions. dont start to be defensive when others criticize you. it doesnt reflect good on you. others will just say you dont listen to advice. also, dont blame everything except yourself for a wrong. even if you are not the direct cause of the mistake, if you are put in charge of it, bear the responsibility. living at an age like yours, i seriously dont understand why do you still have to make them be worried for you? it just irks me more.
why am i starting the brand new year with such a hate-me entry? i saw what i shouldnt have. the cycle is going to start again. is it really that hard to make a clean, clear, definite, sharp cut from personal relationships? are you really that soft hearted to be taken in by the empty promises and sweet talk? i just have to tell you this, you never learn your lesson. good luck!
this group of people can get onto my nerves very easily. they are the group of people who loves to live in their own time. when things go wrong, they choose to stand right at the same spot for the longest time you can ever imagine. dont they know that time waits for no man? things dont go backwards like pressing the backspace button on the keypad. we move forward! they refuse to do anything to salvage the situation. they whine and live in self-pity. seriously, get a life! if you dont love yourself, you cant accept the same from others.
i cant say i am a super duper responsible person but you do earn my respect if you are willing to be responsible for your own actions. dont start to be defensive when others criticize you. it doesnt reflect good on you. others will just say you dont listen to advice. also, dont blame everything except yourself for a wrong. even if you are not the direct cause of the mistake, if you are put in charge of it, bear the responsibility. living at an age like yours, i seriously dont understand why do you still have to make them be worried for you? it just irks me more.
why am i starting the brand new year with such a hate-me entry? i saw what i shouldnt have. the cycle is going to start again. is it really that hard to make a clean, clear, definite, sharp cut from personal relationships? are you really that soft hearted to be taken in by the empty promises and sweet talk? i just have to tell you this, you never learn your lesson. good luck!
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